I'm tired.

Just tired. Of it all. Everything. I'm tired of having to be the one that my mother tells all her problems to and expects advice from. I'm thoroughly tired of being sick and not knowing what I have, and am somewhat worried that they sent me for another blood test without telling why or what it's for. I'm tired of studying despite the fact that I've barely studied at all. I'm tired of my mother telling me that I need to come for Christmas, basically come hell or high water, even though I have a mysterious virus and can't come home if I'm contagious. I'm tired of not being able to do anything other than hug my boyfriend because he has mono and I have some unknown disease. I'm tired of eating res food and feeling slightly nauseous everytime I go down to get something to eat. I'm tired of being stressed to the breaking point and knowing that I can't have a meltdown because I don't have time for it. I'm tired of feeling stressed even though I really don't have much reason to be this stressed. I'm just...tired.

I wish I could just get away. From everything. Just go somewhere where I don't know anyone and no one knows me and just be free of everything. And not have to worry about anyone's problems, not even my own, for just a little while. Even for just a day.

But I can't. I can't. I have to worry. About my mum's work problems, about my grandma, about exams, about being sick, about the future...And I don't know that I can handle it anymore. But I have to. I don't have any other choice. And I have to go study as I have two exams tomorrow.

I'll fall apart later, when I have time for it. But not now. Not now.