Stupid Mare

Oh Mare. Silly Mare. Stupid, silly Mare. Look what you've done. Way to go. Way to 'deal' with the situation. We did just what we always did. We ignored it, hoped it would go away. Well, guess what? We lost, didn't we? Stupid. Oh god, don't leave me. I love you so much, please, please don't go. Don't go. Not again. I couldn't have done it again. I love you so much. I'll fix it, whatever it is, I'll fix it. Just please talk to me. *moan* I can't lose you. You've no idea how much you mean to me. I very nearly cried many times today. At lunch, during the paper one, the paper two, the break, after school. When you looked at me like you couldn't stand the sight of me. But we musn't cry. No, we musn't let them see us cry. Musn't let anyone see us cry. What would they say? "Stupid girl, crying over a stupid boy". But you aren't a stupid boy. I love you so. Stupid stupid STUPID! Musn't cry. Musn't let anyone see. Especially mum and dad. Oh god, if they find out. *cynical laugh* Well if he leaves us they'll find out sometime, won't they? One more thing to be dissapointed over, to remind us of at every turn. They don't know how much it hurts. They don't care. Oh god, don't leave me. Don't leave. I'll do anything, just...don't. Don't leave.