Monday, March 14, 2005
Mare's inner private thoughts
I've been trying to sort some things through in my head, but unfortunately it hasn't been working and I don't have Sydney's gift of compartementalizing, so I thought I'd work it out here, as this has basically become my diary anyway. Ok, so last week mum tells me about Cody and Amy, and how Cody's changed and all right? Well now I can't get it out of my bloody head. I mean, don't get me wrong, it's not as if I wish I was still involved with him or anything (because I really don't), but I can't help feeling weird about the whole thing. And I couldn't stop staring at Amy in church the other night and I think she noticed. I know, I'm psychotic, but I can't help it. I'm sure Amy's a nice person and all, but I've never really heard that much about her that wasn't well, nice, and she always looks so angry. *sigh* I don't know why this is bugging me so much. I should be happy that he's happy. But the truth is, I don't think he is happy. His grandmum says he barely speaks to her anymore and is always moody and stuff, which is never a good sign with Cody. Obviously something is wrong, but I certainly can't talk to him about it. My goodness, last time I talked to him I nearly fainted from shock, so clearly it wouldn't be a good idea. Besides, he's all grown up and can deal with his own problems. Right? Grr, this is so stupid. I just wish he could find someone that could make him happy. If Amy's that someone, then great. But if she is, why is he acting so different? Ok, enough obsessing for one night.
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You're not weird Mare, you're just concerned...which is perfectly normal. He used to be a big part of your life and it's very nice of you to want to make sure that he's not hurting himself. Plus, I know what you mean about Amy...she always does seem rather angry...but her mom is pretty hard on her and stuff...from what I've heard from Lara, so she may just be dealing with stress in a weird way...hopefully Cody's doing alright...next time I see him I'll be sure to ask him how things are going...I don't know if he'll tell me the truth, but I'm pretty sure that he wouldn't ignore me, unless he has changed that much, so I guess his response will be enough...then...lol...I'll look deeply into his eyes and see if something is wrong. Who knows, I might be able to tell...I can usually pick up something from people's eyes, but we'll see...perhaps I'll just creep him out...lol...hmmm...where does he work?? Is it still Winner's? Because I may have some difficulty finding a believable "legitimate" reason to go there...what kind of sporting good am I in need of??? Oh well, hopefully everything is fine...I'll keep my fingers crossed...sorry, I'm not very much help...in fact, I'm just blathering... OH MARE!!! WHAT IS A CLARE TO DO??? Oh well, perhaps we can find some sort of sporting need together and then head off to Winner's...oh well, we'll figure out something. Perhaps you can get your mother to talk to Amy's mother about the importance of bringing one's daughter's beau to church...thus, Mrs. Diotte will feeled compelled to drag Cody along to church...or, have your mother discuss with Cody the importance of visiting the deli during spring break as growing boys are in need of proteing...this is a pickle...but I always get myself out of them...thus, this shows promise!!
~Clare
a) she's no longer mrs. diotte
b) amy has had A LOT of issues in the past. her stepmom was killed (police officer, got hit by car...remember?)... and her parents' relationship was always slightly off. like abusive off. she's had a hard start, and both her and gina haven't really come out of it well.
c) cody is...different. from what i've heard (mainly through andrea/you, he's not the same at all.)
I'm no good at helping.
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