Oh my, how embarrassing.

So today absolutely, positively, completely, and utterly sucked. It was going aight, but then it took a nosedive. Cookies in the morning for St Patty's day: HOT! Falling asleep in history: not quite so hot. Being woken up by someone flicking me in the forehead: less hot. Getting 47/50 on the m/c test in English: SO HOT! Dogeball at lunch: somewhat hot. Disecting a fetile pig in bio: NEGATIVE HOTTNESS TO THE MAX! Ohhhhh my goodness. It was going ok. Mrs Rose's descriptions before we got into the lab were revolting. There are some food I will no longer eat. Actually seeing baby piggies floating in formaldehyde was beyond revolting. I managed to stop my gag reflex however while simultaneously avoiding looking at people disect the pigs too much. Of course, hearing Alex's description of giving the piggy a bath was quite disconcerting. And accidentally seeing Mrs Rose stick her finger into our pig and squish the organs around was absolutely the last straw. I had to get out of there. However, I maganged to keep from crying until I got out of the lab. Lovely. However, on my way to the math room (to see Mark) I met randyhere coming out of his classroom on the way to the math common, and he saw me crying. Oh my, how embarrassing! I absolutely hate people seeing me cry. It's like I've shown my weaknesses to someone and then they know how to hurt me. I just hate it. And I know how absolutely silly it is to be crying over disecting an already dead fetus, but I couldn't help it. It was just a baby. So, after, Mark told me to go to the library, which I did. Chemistry was much better. Coma-inducing, but when isn't it? At least there was no disecting. *sigh*. Bus tonight was less than thrilling. But hey, no one pinched me tonight, there's a plus. I was complaining to my dad tonight about how I didn't want to go to school, and he says "Well, you have 12 hours until you have to go back." My response: "Ya, but half of that is spent doing homework". And you know what, alot of nights, that's true. Doesn't that suck uberly? Almost my entire day is spent doing things school-related. Going to school: 2-2 1/2 hours. At school: 7 hours. Homework: 4-6 hours (usually). That's like, roughly 14 hour a day homework. Plus an hour for supper and an hour to get ready in the morning, that leaves me a total of 8 hours a day to sleep and do something fun. Oh god, I hate my life.