New Look for a New Beginning?

It's pretty well spring. You wouldn't know it from looking out the window since it's all gross and snowing, but it's spring. Plus it's almost Easter, which is all about the rebirth and all that jazz. So I decided I needed a new look and, hey, I just might get refocused and start actively trying to do something with my life. I've started working out again. I'm terribly out of shape, but I'm trying because I'd really like to be a little less...curvy (read: have less thighs). And I'm trying to eat healthier. Janna showed me this really cool thing on www.dietitians.ca called eatracker. Basically, you tell it everything you had to eat and all the activity you did, and it tells you what you need to eat more of and less of and if you need more activity. It's pretty stellar, I have to say.

I've definitely been slacking off on school lately though. After all, I've had strep twice in less than two months, and four group projects (written and presentation) all due within a couple of weeks of each other on top of my regular assignments. So I've stopped making any effort whatsoever at spanish. I've even skipped over my allotted amount of classes. But I honestly don't care. I don't even want to take it anymore, but my parents have told me I have to, therefore I obey. But I'm doing okay at my other classes, and I'm fairly enjoying the ag stuff. Although I was ready to shoot half the kids in my an sc 200 class for not being able to get it through their heads how the quota system works. It's really not that hard of a concept. But whatever.

And I think things are going well with Myles. March has been the month of death with assignments, but we see each other a couple of times a week. I'm finding it really hard to open up though, which bothers him, I think. I want to, but I just can't seem to let myself get all that emotionally involved. Basically, I'm a terrible person. But I guess we'll see how it goes. I'll open up eventually, right? He invited me to go down to Red Deer/Calgary with him to hang out with his brother and his friends this weekend (which I said no to because I have a ton of homework and I was SUPPOSED to be going to a dairy farm today, which got cancelled). Is that a big deal? I never know with these things. Mainly because I never think most things are a big deal. But hey, I'm apparently cold and can turn off my feelings, so maybe that's why. I just don't want to get super involved and start making plans and have it all come crashing down again. Because that hurt. A lot. And it still hurts. There are still nights I cry myself to sleep.

But it will get better. It has to, right? Or else what would be the point in living?

Update in a nutshell

It's been an age and a half since I've posted...I've become quite slack, I guess. Although, truth to tell, not a whole lot has been going on. Well, interesting-wise I mean. Lots of boring school stuff though. I'm still "pending" for my admission into AFHE. Not that it really bothers me, I suppose, but I'd like it to be official sometime this century. Honestly, how hard is it to press a button that says "approved"? I suspect not very.

I have a grand total of four group projects due this month. First up is my Heifer In Your Tank project, which is going to be filmed documentary style, and written up in McLeans. Not just my group, I mean, all of HIYT because it's probably the last year for it. I'm totally nerding it up and getting a shirt. But my group is pretty good, so I think it should go well. I also have a case study report for AREC 323 that we have no idea what we're supposed to be doing for because the prof has never told us what he wants. FANTASTIC. Practially Set For Life Lottery FANTASTIC. AREC 200 has a report and presentation and my group hasn't even met yet. I'm rather worried for that one, but we'll see what we can pull off. And then I have my spanish oral, which should be aight. Plus all the rest of my regular homework of course. Ugh

This weekend was pretty busy, but in a good way. Siobhan and I went to Chapters and Gordon Price (no good sheet music, tear), and then Myles came over for a bit and we went to dinner at BPs, then to the casino for a bit, and then ended up at the ranch with Jamie and Alexis and Steven. It was a little bit lame though, and Jamie was tired, so we all left early. Saterday was the longest ever group meeting for HIYT, but we got a lot done. One girl showed up an hour late and left early though, so we weren't too thrilled about that. And then Dana and Siobhan and I went out to dinner at Mongolie Grill, which was fantabulous. And then we came back played some piano, and I went and watched the rest of the hockey game at Myles's. Suckily, we had to get up early because Myles had work and I had to go grocery shopping, which took for freaking ever. Seriously old ladies, there is NO NEED to jam your carts into our cart/heels/any exposed body parts. JUST WAIT YOUR TURN! It was so busy. And the walk home was cold and full of heavy bags of food. Mmmm foood. Siobhan and I had a wonderful workout, which hurts tremendously this morning. But I love working out, and I ran a 10 minute mile, which is really good for me. I'm just not much of a runner. And then I went to Myles' and Jamie's for dinner (Jamie and Steven cooked), and it was pretty fun. But the bus in to campus this morning took an extra half hour because 114st was SO congested. I was almost late.

So ya, that's my life lately in brief. I basically have no life. But I DO have an interview tomorrow, which means I have to go home tonight. Fingers crossed!